Thursday, December 31, 2015

Hello 2016!

I am not one of those people who believe that a new year equals a fresh beginning.

I've never really understood, why people think that?

Or say it?

Nothing happens at midnight on Jan 1st that changes your life!

All the issues, problems, troubles you had the night before.

You will still have on Jan. 1st.

It really is just another day.

If you had debt. You'll still have it.

If you had an illness, you'll still have it.

If you had bills up to your eyes, an awful job, unruly kids, or a cheating husband.

Chances are.. you're still going to have all those things.

And I know what you're thinking.. well I'm determined to make a change.

Good for you!

But why did you wait until Jan. 1st to do that?

Why didn't you do it June 1st, or Sept 23rd?

I'm also pretty sure you said the exact same thing this time last year!

Waiting on a day to make a change..

that never comes.

I know I am Debbie downer here..

But I'm also realistic.

Then some people say it, because of the emotional struggles they had gone through.

The hurt, the heartbreak, the distress.

But just like above.

Chances are those feelings are not going to change.

You're still going to feel them.

My point is.. there is no better time than now!

I mean..what happens if tomorrow never comes?

If there is one thing I have learned this past year.

These past two days..

You are not promised a tomorrow.

None of us our promised another Jan. 1st!

But we do have today.

So seize it!

This past year, a lot of us, especially those who I've gone to school with,  have lost a few people.


Here one day, gone the next.

And I do not know about you.

But never in million years would I thought that..

Beth Carr

Sheri Heniser

Nathan Coppock..

and I'm sure there are more.

Wouldn't be here on Jan. 1st with the rest of us.

Never in a million years could I imagine the little girl who I met every day before school our third grade year, to make sure our bangs were tall enough. Wouldn't be here with us. Or  the first guy I ever had a crush on, who at times refused to call me anything other than "Randy's little sister". Would not be here today.

It's been really hard to wrap my mind, and heart around..losing both.

Nathan's passing, has brought back Beth's passing.. and the fact that I never really grieved over her.

and I feel like an emotional mess.

So I do not know about you.. but I do not want to wait until tomorrow..

to make a change.

I do not want to live for a day..

that may never come.

I want to live for today!

I have made some of my best decisions

on a whim.

I didn't think

I didn't contemplate anything.

I just did it.

And it always turned out good!

You do not have to wait until a certain day to make that change!

My challenge to you this year,

is not to wait for tomorrow.

Because like I said..

You are not promised a tomorrow.

You're not promised the next 5 minutes.

So stop living as though you're going to see it.

Make sure you let those you love.. KNOW IT! Call your mother, father, brother, and sisters.

Let those friends who are struggling know.. YOU ARE THERE!

Tell your children they are your world.

Let your cousin's know you care.

Pet your dogs, kitties, turtles and fish.

Do by phone, text, e-mail, or plaster it on Facebook!

If you're in a bad relationship.


If you can't physically leave them.. let them know..emotionally they be gone!

You've only got one live

and you're only promised day to day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by just breath! (That one is for you Nate)

This one is for Beth!!!

Monday, December 21, 2015

Guess I'm a Player

Well guess what? I am a player! So I am told. 

At least this dude on Facebook seems to think so. 

This guy, who randomly wrote me. 

A guy I do not know. 

He started writing me a few days ago. 

I am not interested. 

So I never replied. 

Thinking to myself that he'd get the hint. 

I mean I would. 

If I wrote someone, and he didn't write back. 

I would think "oh he's not interested"

and move on. 

Not continue to write him. 

I'd get the hint.

I'd back off. 

But not this guy. 

He kept writing. 

At first it was just normal. "HI how are you", "my name is so and so" things like that. 

Then it got a little sexual. 

And then it got a little mean

And then it got really mean, 

And then he started accusing me of being a "player", and just "leading him on"

Dude.. I never wrote you! 

So..I guess I am a player. 

According to him. 

Of course he doesn't know what a player is. 

Because that's not a player.



You see someone who plays someone, usually misleads someone into thinking something that's not true. 

Like they are interested in you

They want to go out

They love you.

They think you're cute, sexy hot. When really they do not. 

Sometimes they tell you these things because they want sex.. and they know that lying to you..might be the only way to get it.

Sometimes they do it because it's funny to them. They have no life, and nothing better to do than play with someone's emotions. So they lead you on.. only to hurt you in the end. 

That is being a player. 

Not ignoring someone. 

Ignoring someone is whole lot nicer than leading someone on! 

Or using them.

I know! I have been played before 

I've had guys do this to me. 

I of course did not reply to him. I blocked him, so he could no longer contact me! 

Which is what I should have done in the first place. 

I honestly thought he'd take the hint and GO AWAY! 

I'll know for next time. 

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Happy Today is Over!

I do not know about anyone else..but I am SOOOO happy today is over.

It hasn't been a very good day.

It was one of those days.. the ones that start out bad.

I lost my wallet.. in my house! Yep you read that house.

The last time I seen it, was the night before.. I had it on the couch while filing about my direct deposit info for my new job..which I wasn't able to do.

So I was pretty sure it was around the couch..somewhere. It had to be.

So I looked under the cushions, and honestly expected to find it. I mean why wouldn't I? Not there. So I look behind the couch..not there. Under? Nope! Around it? Nope..

Hmmm where could it be? I thought.

So I started looking in things, and under.

Chairs were flipped, tables pulled out.

Then I moved to my bedroom.

Maybe I put it in my purse and just didn't remember. Nope didn't look there first. Should have huh? Nope.. not there!

Looked on my computer desk. Actually tore it apart. Ripped out books, papers etc. Not there.

Moved to my dresser drawers, and chest.

Then to my bed. Who knows..maybe it crawled into bed with me last night..right? Nope. I can't even get that to sleep with me!

Looked at baskets in the bathroom, including the clothes basket, looked in sink drawers, and where I keep my hair tools. Looked in my makeup bags! Yep I did that. Once again.. don't know why it would be in there..or how it would get there. But I looked anyways. It wasn't in any of those places.

Then I moved to the kitchen. Don't worry I didn't look in the stove, or fridge..but I thought of it. However, the washing machine and dryer was looked through! As was cabinets, I even looked in the tub of 5 dollar pop corn from Walmart. Who knows? Maybe I placed in there while sleeping walking..that I may or may not do.. it would explain why I can't find a wallet in my little itty bitty house!

As you can probably guess.. wasn't there.

So it was time to look in my unconventional places.. like under the Christmas Tree skirt, in the Nativity, because you never might want to hang with baby Jesus right? I was on my hands and knees looking.I looked in pillows and shoes.

I started to freak out a little!! (Who am I kidding..I was freaking out before that). My life was in that wallet. Well at least my debit card.. which is my money. My DL's and SSN (I need that for work..and hadn't taken it out yet OK?) credit cards.. you know important crap. And while I wasn't scared of someone getting a hold of it. I still needed that crap to you know have proof I am who I say I am, get a hold of my money. Important things like that.

I also needed to find it by 7:45.. cause I needed that crap for a CPR/First Aid class I was to be at later that day!

There was only one last place(s) I hadn't looked. Trash cans! Eww!! But I did it. I started with the trash can in my bedroom. It's not that bad. Just papers really. Then bathroom.. which isn't as gross as one would think. Being no one in my house has periods anymore. So it's shampoo bottles, and toilet paper rolls. Then the kitchen..which is sooo gross.

It turned up nothing..

And after an hour and half.. I gave up!

I was done!

I had decided that I would call my supervisor and let her know I didn't have my ID for the class.

NO point in going if I can't actually do the course.

I was done. I figured it would turn up eventually.

But today wasn't the day.

And as I looked around at the mess I had made. I knew I had a bigger problem at hand.

Cleaning this house!

Another dread set over me.. it's a good thing I have a little house though!

I started with my room. I made my bed, picked up clothes, hanged things back up!

Looked like a storm had moved through!

It was honestly the worst place in the entire house!

Then I moved to my computer desk.

Saved it for last.. because it was the worse.

I had so many useless papers..I did not need to keep.

So I thought I might as well throw them away!

I started going through them. To see what was good, and what was bad.

Picked up a paper labeled "Weight tracker"

and lo and behold.. there was my wallet!


I tore that desk apart. At one point there was NOTHING there.


And there it was.. and it was a beautiful sight!

Black with silver skulls!!

I was SOO happy to find it!

Now I know what you are thinking.. that ends the bad day..right?

That is so funny.. and cute!

You're wrong.. oh you are oh so wrong!

I had just enough time to pay my cell phone bill before I left.

It is my only bill for the rest of the month..and I wanted to get it taken care of..

since I had just gotten paid!

I jump online, go the website, log in, and go to the page to pay.

I enter my info..mark I agree to their stupid agreement of terms..

Submit.... and get ..


WHAT??? NO!!! I have to pay this dumb bill now!

So I try it again..

Go all through the steps..

and get..


NOOOOOOO not again. I then quit.

Because knowing my luck.. they will charge me twice.. and a third if I do again..

I closed my computer.. and went on my way.

Did you know it was like 30 something degrees this morning?

It wasn't that last night when I went to bed.

Did you know I left late to catch my ride to CPR and First Aid?


Did you know I had frost on my windows, the car wasn't heated up, and I needed to stop at the gas station for chips!

You probably didn't. But I did.

So I had to warm up the car, and scrape the windows..

Which wouldn't have been so bad, had I not been running late!

Thankfully, the ride to Troy went smooth.

No speeding tickets (I'm lucky)

My car didn't break down, didn't get behind any buses,  hit deer or got stuck by cows!

Things were looking up!!

I get the station, run in fast..because I can't be late.

Grab some chips, and of course an iced coffee.

Get up to the counter, they ring my stuff up..and I reach in my purse for my wallet.. and..


Now I know it was in my purse!

I put it here before I left.

Then got on my computer desk and I don't remember that all.

So I ran out to the van..and tore it apart..not there.

I go back in and retrace my steps.

I must have taken it out of my purse..and put it on the counter when I got my iced coffee.

That beautiful, black with silver skulls wallet!

Amazingly I got to work on time, and didn't miss my ride.

We had to go to Cincinnati for the class.

Yeah doesn't make much sense huh?

Especially since the YMCA just down the road..offers the same classes.

But you know..I can't complain.

They transported us, paid for the class, and paid us to take the class.

I had it made if you asked me.

And the drive there went great! Knock on wood.

I was starting to think the morning was a sign of things to come!

The class on the other hand..not so good.

The place was a training center, for home health care and nursing.

They offer all kinds of classes..

CPR/First aid just happens to be one of them..

and they was so unprepared!

BTW I hate that.  A lot. It's one of my pet peeves.

Now this isn't the first of these classes I've taken

I've taken many.

And I have NEVER been in one like this.

Now granted things have probably changed since my last class..

but I doubt this much.

There was no class material (packets, papers, books etc.)

And the teacher spent more time out of the class, than in it.

He basically came in to start, pause and stop the video we were watching.

It was only about 2.5 hours long..for BOTH classes.

And we had no test at the end..

We would have been better off at the YMCA..

I may still do the YMCA class!

The drive home was uneventful as well.. didn't even get in traffic.

But I got a notification from my bank..

Letting me know that my card had been used to pay my cell phone bill...



And while I was happy I didn't do it three times, I was still mad that it went through two times, several hours after I tried to submit them! Had it happened right away..OK..but several hours!

Which means I now have to call and fight over my bill, with some foreign speaking person..I can't understand.

I'm mad.. and a language barrier is never a good thing when you're ticked off!

Because in the end you both get ticket off.

I'm mad because I can't understand them! I just want to resolve the problem without saying "can you repeat that" or "could you say that again" or "I'm sorry I didn't hear you". Even though I really heard them. I just didn't want to be rude.

They are mad because they have to repeat themselves over and over again.

Oh and lets not forget that it takes 15 freaking minutes to get to the place where they transfer you to a an actual human! I swear I said "yes" and pushed buttons forever before they transferred me. Then I had to wait 15 more minutes for someone to answer my call.. all while listening to awful music, that's on a loop. Only to be greeted by someone I could not understand. The struggle is real!

Then once you get an actual person..they keep transferring me to different departments. I was so frustrated! Finally though..I got it taken care of. I'm getting my refund!

Which is good. Because if they hadn't given it to me.. I'd be ticked.. REALLY ticked.

This was all before 3 this afternoon..

I was so happy to be home!

And so good.

I just checked on my wallet... Still there!


And I can sigh.. and be happy that today is almost over!

Hopefully, tomorrow will be much better!

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Dear Santa,

Dear Santa,

I am getting a little fed up with you Santa. Every year I am a good girl, and I do no wrong. Every year I ask for the same two things! It never changes. Yet, you can't seem to deliver on either.. well most of the time! So let me try again, this year. It would be super if you could give me one, if not BOTH of what I ask for!

First..I want..

SNOW!!!! that too much to ask?? I mean it's not really Christmas without it. OK it is by it's not as joyful, and happy unless I have me some snow! SO PLEASE PLEASE for the love of hot chocolate and candy canes.. send some of that Arctic cold air Ohio's way with a few inches of snow! It doesn't have to be a blizzard! It can start on the 23th, and end the 25th, and melt on the 26th and not come back until this time next year! And I would be over the top happy! Like a giddy little kid who just got a puppy for Christmas! 

Next, I've been asking for this since I was about 18. I do believe I've asked you and God. Neither one of you seem to listen. Or maybe this request gets lost a long the way? IDK? Either way, neither of you seem to bring it to me! My second and most important request would.. 

Yep a man with no body! No really.. A man.. I want a man. Doesn't have to look like him. But I want one! And I want one NOW! I want him yesterday. No I wanted him 10 years ago, actually try 18 years ago! Yes Santa I'm that old! But I do not want just any ol' guy. I want a sweet guy he is VERY patient. Even with me. Which we both know.. I can get to someone quickly. Someone who comes from a big family, and he's close to them. He likes the same things as me. Hates country music, loves dancing, slow dancing. Likes to hold hands, hug, and show affection. Someone who'll watch a girly movie, and then a horror movie, and then a cartoon. cheaters allowed. Knows what he wants, and is not scared to go for it. Will protect me, and my heart from breaking. Someone who can sing.. and sing good. Doesn't have to look like the guy above. Actually, I would rather he not..aside from the beard! I love beards, when worn right. Brown eyes, and hair. Nice lips and strong hands. Broad shoulders. He doesn't have to look like a super model. Actually, I would rather he not. A teddy bear is more like it! And tall.. I'm short, but even more tall than me. Must believe in God. That is a MUST! And not someone who says "I believe in God" but also shows it! Not Mormon, or Catholic though. Their believes are nothing like my own. Doesn't want kids.. or anymore kids. Cause well.. I ain't got a uterus to have kids. But be open about adoption. Must love dogs, and/or have them!

I'm not asking for much am I? I didn't think so. I've never been as detailed with you now that you know what I am looking for. Send him my way! I have like 7 day's left at Walmart. My lane is always opened! haha. Just saying.

Now that you know what I want for Christmas. I'll patiently sit by and wait for you to send me my snow and man! Even though, I'm guessing, this time next year, I'll be asking you for the same thing all over again..